I know...what I know.

I am chilling in my room right now. It feels good.

I am trying to figure out how to rearrange my furniture. It's a hard room to arrange because it has three doors in it -- two of which are on the same side of the room. I want to change it up in here but I keep remembering why I have it the way I have it now.

It's ok though. It just means I need to get creative. I think I can make this happen. I'm excited. I've realized that I can't just jump into this project. I really have to take some time and think about the most efficient way to get through everything in my room.

I have decided that my first order of business is to take absolutely everything out of this room and put it into my brother's room. He's staying at SMU this year so his space is fair game for the project.

Next, I'm going to clean and rearrange all of the furniture in my bedroom and start moving in all of my stuff from Austin. These items are the most important things in my life right now. I need to be able to have easy access to them and know exactly where they are.

After that I will slowly go through every thing in Ethan's room.

I think this project is manageable. Yessss...

*sigh*

I don't want to do this. I'm lazy and it's so easy to ignore. =/

Starting.

I woke up this morning feeling super overwhelmed by the task at hand. There are two parts that are the hardest part of any project -- starting and ending.

One of my favorite professors at UT gave us a list of advice at the end of the semester. One that stuck out in particular was to make your bed every day before you leave the house.

It's hard to know where to start when there is shit everywhere so I took up his advice and started here.

I have always found that making my bed instantly creates calmness in my mind. I love the fabrics and textures of blankets and pillows. Beds typically are the most important part of a bedroom. They take up the most space and are the easiest focus point of the room.

Needless to say, I felt much better after I had made the bed. I then picked up everything on the floor and put it into the guest room. It's a good thing we have four bedrooms in this house and only two people are living here.

One of the biggest reasons I decided to move back up here for the summer is because of the space. I need a lot of room right now. I'm rearranging and reorganizing and it's harder to do that when you don't have your own space.

The current blanket I have on my bed is from my Aunt Katy. It's actually a tablecloth but I love the pattern on it.

I'm not willing to give this up yet -- really there's no reason to because it's actually being used right now.

This is only day two of the project. I've managed to create space in my room so that I can start sorting through stuff. I believe I'm going to start with the bathroom, but that is for tomorrow. I have accomplished enough for today.

Let Go: The Beginning

"Before the new chapter has begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need."

-Paulo Coelho

I have never been the best at letting things go. It's something that I always try to convince myself I'm good at it, but the fact of the matter is that I have a bunch of stuff around me that I don't need. I convince myself that I need to hold on to these things for one reason or another -- typically it revolves around the desire to remember either a person or an experience.

I have taken a hiatus from life in Austin and moved back in with my dad. I've decided to take this time to take care of myself, move on from my past and prepare as much as I can for the future. I strongly believe in facing obstacles in life head on and this is my way of doing it.

Soul searching is a process. I hope letting go of these things will bring me closer to finding my inner peace. =)

Enjoy.